Implosion

Some days, I feel like I’m looking for an excuse to self-destruct.

People go off the wagon, drink to excess, hide themselves away from the world, snap at everyone around them until there’s nobody left to care. And there are times when I feel all that’s holding me back from implosion is not actually having a good reason.

If something tragic were to happen in my life, I’d feel justified in wanting to just do away with the world and quit. But there isn’t a good reason. I’m in a relationship, I have a good job and a place to live. I have good family, good friends, a good life by most measures.

So why do I want to jack it all in? Why is there this darkness, calling me away, telling me that what I want is death?

I wish I knew.

2 Comments

  1. Some days, I feel like I’m looking for an excuse to self-destruct. Damn right!… have one of those days where I really wanna screw up life so bad just for something to happen or change ..and that’s where common sense and optimism comes in.

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