I’m running low on fuel, literally and figuratively. And like my car, I wonder if I’ve been doing the same in other areas of my life – waiting for the “fuel to run dry” before doing anything about it.
I’m tired. It is my own fault really, for not going to bed at the point of tiredness. My night-time “winding down” ritual involves too many steps, but to go to bed without following the steps would leave me feeling too unsettled to sleep.
After pondering this, I started thinking about my relationships, and how I let them stretch to breaking-point before doing anything about them. And I wondered whether my obesity is a symptom of the same pattern of thinking, a “deal with it later” attitude.
Being aware of this, I am now looking to spot the laxity in my life and become more proactive. Thus:
- Consider filling up the car when it’s on 30% instead of reserve
- Talking to my friends and loved ones more
- Not eating cake, thinking I can work around it by cutting calories elsewhere or exercising
- Going to bed when I’m tired
- Trying to allow myself to explore the underlying reasons why I need my bedtime ritual and other comfort mechanisms
should be my new plan.
