I haven’t taken time in a long while to reflect on life using this blog. Some of it amounts to performance anxiety, some of it is about not making the time, and the rest is fear. The fear that stopping to reflect on things will mean actually having to face …
On Saturday we had our engagement party. Here are some things that I learnt: You can get away with inviting more people than you think will comfortably fit. Some people will show up at the start of the party. Prepare well in advance so you’re relaxed when people arrive. Once …
I’m not great at following through, or following up. I’ve often stated intentions on this blog, but don’t often come back with results. Which is usually due to the first problem: a lack of commitment. I checked my weight, and I have hit 270 pounds. Argh! My belly circumference is …
I’m running low on fuel, literally and figuratively. And like my car, I wonder if I’ve been doing the same in other areas of my life – waiting for the “fuel to run dry” before doing anything about it. I’m tired. It is my own fault really, for not going …
I ordered Domino’s. It felt like the logical thing to do at the time, but for all the justification, there was no good reason for it. I was just lazy. I don’t want to be too harsh on myself, but it did bring me to a moment of clarity, and …
I am a rainbow. My energy is scattered over a spectrum of interests; my focus is spread, and my intensity is weakened. I’ve often thought this when I have these moments. I see so many possibilities, so many things I want to devote my time to, and I have so …
Been looking a bit at the Myers Briggs Type Indicator. According to my test, I am INTJ. According to my friend, I am INFJ. Essentially, I waver on the thinking / feeling scale. When asked for a direct answer as to which way I lean, I tend to give thinking …
a new poem kiss
It’s only been in the last few years that I’ve learned that playing down the exciting stuff doesn’t take the pain away when it doesn’t happen. It does, however, minimize the joy when it does happen. It also creates a lot of isolation. Once you’ve diminished the importance of something, …
This morning I woke with a pain in my back. Not a terrible pain, just a niggling, gripping one that appears when I change position. My instinct was to get painkillers. But then I thought: No. There’s obviously something broken here, and if I numb it I might damage it …
